I shouldn't be posting but well, sometimes this is what we call "impulse".

Because i was reading through the notes people wrote to me and i felt a lot going through me. And somehow, i neglected someone important in my life and i simply grew distant with this person.

Talk about regret, yes i do. I intend to talk to her after 'O's and all, but i wonder if she would even be willing to do so, after me being such a jerk.

After all who have i got to blame?

I must be crazy to be posting this ( well i am expecting that she wouldn't read ) but i felt that our friendship was real at that time. We loved each other as very good friends and all. But for some unknown reason we just drifted.

Somehow, this important person in my life got further and further.

And it's not her fault.

Maybe its' because of all the O lvls prep. that got me crazy.

Well, deep inside i know that we will have to part ways sooner, since we are going 2 different ways after sec 4.

I can only tell myself that it's too late for regrets.

If there is anything i would have regretted the most in my life, it would be this (unless by a miracle this is salvaged).

Maybe the reason we drifted is because i felt that she doesn't like me in the sense that she keeps pulling me down in front of others and keep suaning me.

Even though i did that to her most of the time too.

Well.

Same for PSLE ( now thats' a hell long ago ).

I'm sure my dad had even more regrets than me. I wonder where he gets so much strength to handle it these 47 years. He is strong.

Regrets. Who doesn't have them? But it is probably a necessary evil so that we will be forced to mature and grow.

Like how i've regretted not treating my parents well when the kid i saw in vietnam never saw her parents before.


I know i will face more regrets when i progress and move on.

And regrets are part of life.

I am sure God allows regrets for a reason.

I will not regret not studying for O lvls.

I hope.